What we could have been

Rest of it.

2012-01-31T13:37:00.008+08:00

Truth to be told.
I care.

站在十字路的交点该怎么走我却只剩回头
除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口去拥有你的什么

是否太晚路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边

Don't doubt me.

Cny well spent.
Met up with all the familiar faces.
With all the hitting, whacking, teasing, bullying.
In need to expand my social network. ._.

27 days more back to university.
I have my holiday long enough
Faster commence uni. ._.

February.
The month that everybody leaves.

LUL

Me want go travelling.

Me want go beach.

Firecrackers that's older than me - Checked

After 21 years of my life.

Now too free nothing better to do.
Something quite interesting.
Here and here.

獅子座真正喜歡的東西，是會執著的讓人害怕
根本就不知道放棄是什麼，除非是他們自己發現這東西不值得。

他的思維從不受限制
喜歡天馬行空的想像，個性不容別人踐踏。

很固執，不懂得放棄。一點點事就胡思亂想。
在別人面前笑得很開心，一個人的時候卻很落寞。
陌生人前很安靜，朋友面前胡鬧。

【獅子座的原則】
1、能不罵人，就不罵！一旦罵，就往死裡罵
2、騙我罵我可以，但不要被我知道
3、我可以容忍，但別超過我的底線
4、我可以裝傻，但別以為我真傻
5、不喜歡就是不喜歡，說啥也沒用
6、任何的真話，我都能接受
7、對我真心的，我會雙倍回報
8、對於裝熟者，不留臉面

m=su
如此坚决
你却越来越远

Skyscraper

2012-01-30T11:36:00.005+08:00

Where

Really got nothing to feel.

Don't know what to feel about.

Nearly, nearly nearly.

Sent that out that night.

All I know. Send or not.

It will be resulted the same.

Print-screen-ed that page!

很多东西错过了

就真的没有重来

想玩孔明灯

写在上面

让它飞到天空去

我有很多东西

很想做需要做

有时候我宁可我什么都懂

Expectation | Reality

Guess part of me

Will always be waiting for it

Still look the same as the one that I used to know.

Tiramisu

2012-01-25T15:53:00.004+08:00

This . That . Those .
Everything.

Same still.
Right here right now.
As always.

2012 please be good. (:

Me duwan insomnia every night. :S

望, 心想事成

Ma Tiramisu no more.

Ma new toy, soon to be! ;)

Hopefully. :D

下一页你亲手写上的离别

由不得我拒绝

这条路我们走得太匆忙

拥抱着并不真实的欲望

来不及等不及回头欣赏

木兰香遮不住伤

不再看天上太阳透过云彩的光

不再找约定了的天堂

不再叹你说过的人间世事无常

借不到的三寸日光

那天堂是我爱过你的地方

- 严艺丹, 三寸天堂

现在才知道原来
一句「原谅我」
胜过很多很多
无数的「对不起」

还来得需要勇气
还来得昂贵

可从来没有听过

you, still

The meaning of the title of this.

Sleepless Nights.

2012-01-18T17:08:00.004+08:00

很久很久
没有认认真真的写了
可能我也是最近很宅得
回到来一点都不想出去
所以也没有什么东西好写

我无聊到
又开始乱读部落格了
陌生人的不认识的朋友的
都很好看很好读
不懂他们的故事
可在背后
每一个故事每一个事件
往往都有一番独特的含义

东西, 给一点点
观察
研究
撮合
抓摸
分析
一点一滴
再组合起来
就知道了答案

想要知道的
给一点点用心
肯定会找得出来
一点都不会太难

答应过的
就会尽量去做

Hi, 蜜糖, 你好! LOOOOOL ;)
No name no anything.
You know who you are.
You sure do. ;)

每次玩 Bejeweled
别有一番心情

自己觉得最好

才是最好的

Vanilla Twilight

2012-01-12T12:52:00.001+08:00

Life goes on

With or without

离去或否

其实只是一个选择

Where so much revealing has done.

And be back on myself, on the own.

Never a closure. Never clarified.

原来下定决心做的事
是可以做到的
记得这一点

阴阴凉凉的下着毛毛雨
刚好又播到下雨天

有时候不是不懂，只是不想懂；
有时候不是不知道，只是不想说出来；
有时候不是不明白，而是明白了也无能为力，于是就保持了沉默。
有些话，适合藏在心里；有些痛苦适合无声无息的忘记；
有些回忆，只适合偶尔拿出来回味。
很多事，当经历过，自己知道就好；
很多改变，无需说出来的，自己明白就好。
- 几米漫画世界

Too much of the thinking lately.
When still, I can relate about anything.
Only that, not that big deal, but just smile over it.

To buy or not to buy the Instax Mini 7s?
I want it so badly.

找一个人惺惺相惜

找一颗心心心相印
91325
会找到的 LOL

Neverland.

2012-01-05T11:11:00.015+08:00

Because things get complicated when people grow up.
And I hate it, tho I'm still acting like one.
Blah.

How about we stop pretending, and tell what we really feel?
Not doubting, judging, pretending.
And not being doubt, judge, criticize?

I want to stay in those years.
Where I've nothing to worry nothing to think about.

Why I still remember, everything.
Things that've said.

I'll never be the same again.
Where, I don't know what I want anymore.
Where, I don't know what can I do anymore.

折纸飞机碰到雨天终究会坠落
无论我怎样结果都还是一样
我怎样改变事实就是无法再改变

It will never be easy.
About anything that related.
Because it matter.

那一段我们曾心贴着心(我想我更有权力关心你)
可能你已走进别人风景多希望也有星光的投影
可惜不是你陪我到最后曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你牵过我的手还能温暖我胸口
- 梁静茹, 可惜不是你

I'll pick up these broken pieces till I bleed,

If that will make it right.

Twenty Eleven

2011-12-31T20:53:00.008+08:00

I survived.
For a full year.

小时候，幸福是一件简单的事。
长大了，简单是一件幸福的事。

A year with both joy and suffer.
Happy, sad, glee, mad, brilliant, regrets, amazement.

A year where I can differentiate much.
Clearer things come into picture.
That; things don't always come out the way you want them to be.
That; things aren't always equally fair trade.
That; things aren't always appreciate by people.
That; things can't be really control by oneself.
That; things will be judged anyway even with or without knowing anything.
The ugly truth.

There were so many things had happened in twenty eleven.
Had done ; yet to be complete ; never had a chance.
Both necessary and unnecessary.
The year I've learned so much.
Of things and people.

2011 was both, good and bad.
Depends on what its about.

The people that you used to know,
Turned to be someone you’ll never understand.

Will forever change by what you made it.
I had lost many of my favourite things somewhere.
Can’t get it back no more.

Welcoming 2012. (:
For better or for worse.
At least you try.

So many to encounter.
So many more.

It’s suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the New Year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our missteps - our promises made, and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures - or closed ourselves down, for fear of getting hurt. Because that’s what New Year’s is all about: getting another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about ‘what if’ and start embracing what would be. So when that ball drops at midnight - and it will drop - let’s remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long.
— New Year’s Eve, Claire Morgan

The place that I dumped my heart to last year. LOL

Never get bored with the people.

And all the different bubble teas.

A shoulder, a smile, a hug, that ease some of the days.

The jokes, the words, the craps and all the trips.

Things will end up differently without the presence of all these faces.

Ecclesiastes 3:11

He has made everything beautiful in its time

"People say sticks and stones may break your bones,
But names can never hurt you, but that's not true.
Words can hurt. They hurt me.
Things were said to me that I still haven't forgotten."
- Demi Lovato

With a heart.

I still hope the best of you.

I will never forget everything that everyone did.
After all, it's all the little things that matter.
Thank you people, that walked through and still walking by.
(:

2012 我不要哭了

Till then.

2011-12-26T01:35:00.007+08:00

To stay like you don't exist then disappear like bubbles.

- Secret Garden

Running in circles

Coming in tails

Heads are a science apart

Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

- Coldplay, The Scientist

Really two curvy lines.

I really camera shy. (:

2011 last shopping spree.

Tired days, with baggy eyes.

Fun times, with all the company.

Photos not much. No time for it anyway.

No adapter, means no photo transfer.

Expected too much of it. Meh.

Not as nice tho.

现在我满身伤痕 ._.

Jomaho.

Banyak suka this one.

The oh-so-famous KOI.

The Green Tea Macchiato nice.

It will be changed in a week time.

Find out, if you want to.

Not worth anything anymore.

Holly Jolly.

2011-12-17T23:49:00.001+08:00

Christmas going to celebrate with friends.
HoHoHo. First time not in Ipoh on the day.

I, tend to over-think, a lot.
Running through, all over again.
I don't like to be in that area.
Weird feelings.

So close yet so super-duper far.

我就是想要

像我的名字一样

Singapore Feb 2011.

留下一些帶走一些，改變一些被改變一些
而學不會的，也許是你最堅持或最難以割捨的那些
- 林俊杰，学不会

I know that sound stupid.

I'm doing it anyway.

For better or for worse.

I try.

Hood.

2011-12-09T11:55:00.007+08:00

Childhood.

That's a really really pretty picture.

Imma wanna to be like that all over again.

Childish.
Yes, I am.

Holiday.
I've no idea what I'm doing with it.

Plans.
Please go accordingly.

Things.
Be worthwhile.

这一路　每一步

都走得太辛苦

是我们没有认路的天赋

这旅途　每一步

都走得太辛苦

决定祝福　我会算数

Moral values of that story,

Let it go. It will be back, if it wants to.

Winter in Berk lasts most the year. It holds on with both hands and won't let go.
And the only real comfort against the cold are those you keep close to your heart.
- Gift Of The Night Fury, Hiccup

You.

I don't have any idea.

Grasping ; Hold on.

2011-12-04T02:07:00.006+08:00

Hello December.

Please be very very very good.

White-Red-Green month.

A joyful happy month should be.

It's like, suddenly.

So many things at once.

Altering doesn't seem right for me.

Yea, I never like that, never did.

It's not ;

I choose to talk like a kid.

My coordination of ears eyes legs and hands.

Results coming out soon.

Baaaaaah. Kill me.

Nothing can be done anymore.

Today reminisce a whole lot.
Spent hours of time doing nothing looking at past photos only.
Good o'times.

I stress. Stress over nothing.

Pressure over nothing.

March please come soon enough.

I don't know how to survive all these at once tomorrow.

Why everything at once? =\

Consequences, tomorrow.
Previous post can be ignored. Kthxbai.

Please.

你

2011-12-01T00:10:00.003+08:00

上一年今天

做了很错的事

今年今天

我不哭了

谢谢你
让我真的很喜欢很喜欢过
也很喜欢以前喜欢你的我
却不是今年的我算了哈哈
我并没有讨厌你

也不奢望
你会看到随你
要怎样就怎样吧

也不释怀了
也该够了

(:

Not waiting.
Not doing anything.
I will just let it be. (:

Back to December? No no no.
Not even a slight. New December. :D
By doing all those things I never did.
Many changes.

念你

唯一不变的
就是不停的改变

外面世界不安静

2011-11-28T15:29:00.001+08:00

分离，漂流着甜蜜的双手
距离，漂流着你妳的呼吸
遗忘，漂流着相拥的热度
失去，漂流着爱情来过的证据
♥

- 柯震東, 陳妍希漂流瓶

November 2011
China Survival Trip - Accomplished.

米豆腐

我的冰糖葫芦

Another 3 months holiday.
Home, like finally.

Me want huge huge Husky.
So fluffy so cute so handsome.
So huggable.

Ain't gonna comment on the China trip. (:
I missed out all the fun with others in Bali.

The forth place from the left.

Nothing much nothing much.
Just that I think a lot recently.
I'm really wanna letting things pass me.
Need to plan ahead, two or few steps in front.
Don't want being stuck, being others' puppet.
Enough of all those craps. Whatever you all bitching about. (:

End of November.
December coming.
Christmas, New Year.

我隨著時間的方向一圈圈打著轉

你會不會找到我將要在哪裡靠岸

如果有一天　撞上一個小缺口

我怕　沉入海底

如果愛有錯　也等的起

谢谢你

Those.

2011-11-18T10:42:00.001+08:00

平行時空下的約定

再一次相遇我會紧紧抱着你

紧紧抱着你

胡夏 - 那些年

在另一个平行时空
很多不可能的事可能发生
我就把全部都抛到哪里去

我承认我自己的幼稚
一直以来我都懂所以才会这样
我也被我自己的幼稚吓倒

I don't have those years.
I've got last year and this year.
Pretty hard times, really.
Getting much better.

I thought of quitting all those things.
But still don't think it worth all of it.
I knew, you removed all those things already.
I knew, you are much better right now.
Bah. What am I thinking.

Don't bother to find me for a week.
Out of Malaysia. (:

我好想告诉你告诉你我没有忘记

幼稚和犯錯，是人生的必經階段，這樣才會懂得成長。

過往的遺憾，永遠是鞭策自己努力的最佳方法。

念

2011-11-06T22:19:00.003+08:00

只要等到对的风我就可以开始飞翔

我要让这个世界因为有我会有一点点差别
而我的世界不过就是你的心

也许在另一个平行时空

我们是在一起的

iStress

2011-10-29T12:52:00.010+08:00

Just another long-whining-crapping-resentful-complaining post.
Don't like it? Leave.

Can I, not study?

So bored of it already.

Somehow really proven that.
I like maths only. Not those theory thingy.

H:
Just bear with it for awhile
Just don't give up
U have to find your own moment
Once u start studying and getting the hang of it
U yourself will know it
And u won't stop studying
Find that spark
And u will go on

Thanks. I hope I can la.
So siennn of study. Urgh. :S
Just another half a month more.
Hang on hang on.

Mad crave on ChaTime now.
Or any other sweet yummylicious thingy.
PEW PEW PEW !

Feel so helpless, careless, disappointed.
Frustrated, rage, happy, hopeless.
Bunch of mixing emotions. LOL
After all the things.
The little ones and the big ones.
So complicated.

Just everything not going well with me.

Maybe, just maybe.
In somebody else's eyes. Things are perfectly fine.
There's just nothing, everything perfectly going well.
At some point it is, but in some it is not. It's not easy, it's not hard.
You will never know, even the exact person don't know.
Always always always, worry for nothing, care for nothing.

Whining. Not really, or not.
Just finding a place to let it all out.
Just too tired of studying, doing things.
Thinkings, analyzing, interpreting, assuming.
Blah.

If you ever get any news.
Make sure you get it all right.
Not being twisted and coated.
Not like you care anyway.

I do both ways.
Both Tumblr and Blogspot.
Maybe it will made sense.
If joined both together.
Maybe not.

I want go Bali with them. ):
But I can't.

If only you saw what I can see.

If only you felt what I can feel.

If only you knew what I can know.

You’ll know.

I need something.

To keep me going on.

主动久了会很累, 在乎久了会崩溃.

我也只差还没崩溃.

Adorable.

2011-10-23T04:33:00.002+08:00

If only you saw what I can see

You’ll understand why I want you so desperately

23

That, really is not a bad number.
Quite good instead. All the good things.
All related to this number.
Coincide much. ;)

It is when I lose my hope down.
Left it behind, let it be, don't care about it.
Somehow appeared as something good.
At least something turned better.
Was really smiling, like a mad woman.

I lost my calculator. At this time.
Can go bang wall already really.
Must really start concentrate study.
No more loitering.

I did something quite crazy.
Quite not my style.
For the change.
For fun only.

Don't take it seriously. ;)

When the time comes

Don't run

Behold

2011-10-19T01:53:00.006+08:00

Don't try me.

Don't be surprise.

I say it and I mean it.

You're not reading/seeing anyway.
Nevermind.

As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t.

Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.

— Haruki Murakami, Dance, Dance, Dance

I will soon definitely catch it with my own hand one day.

Start to plan ahead already.

Have to stop linger around.

With things that aren't even worth it.

At all anymore.

The central core.

Upon things.

Yeah, exactly.

That's no turning back anyway.

Just that, I'm so blinded for so long.

What we could have been.

This line doesn't mean anything.

Cause in life, the truth is.

There's no what could have been.

Should have been. Would have been.

Just another missing out, passing by, letting go. (:

Week 12. Last week of Year 2 Sem 2.

Eye bags so serious.

When the time comes.

Baby don't run.

Really really very cute. :D

"Look, I know that I act all tough and I talk all tough, but really...
It's just a front to protect yourself from your own vulnerability."

4th Nov till 14 Nov.
16 Nov. Cannot join.
19 Nov. Can't wait.
Getaway. Runaway.

It's okay.

I know.

I get it.

That's why.

Revived.

2011-10-15T16:50:00.005+08:00

"Where troubles melt like lemon drops,

Happiness is merely the choice of a beginning."

好想告诉你

告诉你我没有忘记

那个笑真的无法忘记

我想对你好

你从来不知道

想你想你也能成为嗜好

我想对你说

却又害怕说错

好喜欢你

知不知道

The meanings of every ♥ as captions.

Behind the profile pictures.

One and only.

All the thinking.

All coming back always.

During the stress time, exam time.

Accepted.

Like what my tumblr link said.

Its fun, reading back all the things.
Tweets in twitter; post in blogger, post in tumblr. Messages in phone. Mails in inbox.

And all the other things. But some of them I don't dare to read back.

你开心就好

我总是个傻丫头

m = su
91361346

8723155

This two numbers.

nznl.ndbzl.nyzl.

Mind over matter.

2011-10-12T01:18:00.009+08:00

Probability, one quarter.

I mind and it matters.
I mind. It doesn't matter.
I don't mind. It matters.
I don't mind. It doesn't matter.

Can't deny the fact that.
It still bothers me.
Cause I still care.

I can't win. I can't lose either.
Everything messing around.

重于泰山，轻于鸿毛

门外的蔷薇带刺伤人的很直接

过去被翻阅结局满天的风雪

Because that four words. Suck big time.

All over the same trap again.

因为我知道我再也
回不到以前从前的我

It's okay. I knew it. ;)
All the while, all the time.
Just didn't know.
Will be like this, again.

Nearly, nearly.
Put on a good show. ;)
It's okay.

Breathe breathe.
Breathing.

All these.

Selectively.

Choices made.

Why choose to be like this.

硬撑很辛苦

撑也不是一样

That’s the thing about stupid decisions.
We all make them. But time is funny.
And sometimes a little magical.
It can take a stupid decision and turn it into something else entirely.
— Ted Mosby

My routine still the same.
Waking up at odd hours.
Do the odd things and back sleep.

好像得空没事做那样
其实还有很多东西做
在这里乱来在这个时候
人反贱的哈-哈-哈 -.-

我学着不去担心得太远
不计划太多反而能勇敢冒险
丰富的过每一天快乐的看每一天

Must finish all 3 chapters of Materials tomorrow.
Must must must must must must must.

Actually I don't exactly knowing what am I doing still.

Because it matter still.

原来我还在想着

Fear-less/more

2011-10-07T09:27:00.006+08:00

"You know what I think we are most afraid of?
Not knowing.

Not knowing whether it’s all really worth it.
Not knowing if you should give up or keep fighting.
Not knowing why you do the things you do;
Not knowing the purpose.

It’s like when you’re little and you touch the stove and get burned.
Because you didn’t know that it was hot.

Not knowing has always hurt us,
from the every beginning."
- Music & Lyrics

;)
Banana flavoured chewing gum.

I need to study.

ㄧ个人的时候在陌生的街头

抬头看著繁星夜垂的天空

哪怕再见一次再听到一次
我也想

我想你, 但也改变不了什么
唯一永远不改变是不停地改变

Swirling

2011-10-05T02:27:00.004+08:00

我的世界的中心依然还是你

唯一永远不改变是不停地改变

我不像以前的自己你也有点不像你

但在我的眼中你的笑依然的美丽

日子只能往前走一个方向顺时钟

不知道爱有多久所以要让你懂

我依然爱你就是唯一的退路

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you;
Or are you going back to the one you love?

Why the battles?
So many choices to make.
So much stands to make.
To stand to, to stand against.

The titles for some of my things.

And that which being posted up before, there, that time.

Somewhere someone something.

Because I stop caring. What others think about.
Quite sick of the mask behind, or maybe even masks.
Whatever it is. From what I knew and saw and read.
Really much despised.

Judge, only when.
You listen to all sides of the stories.
Better still, don't even judge. You all.
You don't know what's all hide behind.

Maybe you know too much.
Or maybe you don't know any at all.

What will you do, when you see again?
As in bumping coincidentally or whatsoever.

Again, I can't answer that question immediate.
Don't know what will I do. Don't want to know. ;)
I extreme. I bias. I know.

Not dwelling.

Just straying. And missing.

Many parts of it.

Acting like 'I don't care'.
But deep inside, there's still something inside.
Something that bother still?
Cannot differentiate.

In order to get something. I've learnt that.

You need to sacrifice something.

Today laughing so hard.
I really nearly forget how to breathe. LOL
This time really laughed at anything.
Joanna very high due to sugar-rush.

Seeing the duck quacking.
Goose shaking their butts.
Fish swirling in the water.
Chilling lakeside.
Laughing.

Sometimes, being a little bit too crazy.
Not bad after all. Better still.

Oh yea. Cannot kill time like this no more.
Finals in like really a month time.
Cannot screw up my time anymore.
Back to camp in library everyday.
Hid face under books tutorials papers.

It doesn't matter still, for you.

牵著你陪著我也只是曾经
2.27am.

Rollin'

2011-10-01T19:01:00.004+08:00

Because sometimes.

Just needa to be alone.

But sometimes, it isn't so.

It's like now.

Everything everyone.

Becoming more complicated.

Tick tock tick tock.

It goes on.

Because people always tend to become specific someone.

Someone that they swear they will never ever be.

Don't try so hard.

Nobody notices anyway.

The look of only two hours of sleep.

I really didn't know how others survive.

Volunteer.
IChemE thingy.
Super tiring thing.
In charge of netball.
Built up the court using flour only.
Running here and there, setting up, cleaning.

I've forgotten when was the last time,
That I did so much for any of my schools.

Till then realized. It matters still.
I stopped and walk towards.
When I heard that song

Please don't, please don't.
Please not be what I think it is.

With nothing to do
Nothing to lose
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

忘记了不该忘的

记得着不该记的

Truth is.

I meant it.

Everything I said.

Everything I wrote.

If you ever read this that those.

Fly.

2011-09-29T20:53:00.003+08:00

像空气般不存在再没有痕迹的爱
你不在当我需要你的爱你不在
— 王力宏

Sunway Giza loiter for the whole day.

Get lost all the way back.
By walking.

Fun times. :D

Panicked.

KaiPing - Chloe - Joanna - YitGuan

SAM S1 girls.

That are not wrinkles.

I thought I saw.

But don't think it is.

Oh well.

Kota Damansara.

Signature Hot Chocolate.

Starbucks.

Deal.

2011-09-28T16:36:00.005+08:00

The future is scary but you can’t just run back to the past because it’s familiar.

Yes, it’s tempting ,but it’s a mistake.

— Robin Scherbatsky

Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better things.

— Ted Mosby

On the side note,

Haritheran Ng

Challenge Accepted.

We made a deal.

Do remember.

Of the silliest funniest people.

I ever met till now.

释怀

抓不住的

是要让它走的

We will see.

How it will become.

1200am

2011-09-26T00:01:00.007+08:00

Things are getting simpler, and it’s making life better. Here’s the cheat sheet:

People want to be liked. We all crave attention and affection and we all reject shame. When we get embarrassed we send a thug version of ourselves to the forefront to do our fighting for us. We’re at the top of the food chain just under fear. We don’t want to be in a relationship to hear the words “I love you,” we want to be in a relationship to say the words “I love you.” We want to feel needed, and exceptional and we hate feeling insignificant. We want to ace a hearing test. We are binary creatures; if we’re the plaintiff, we want to win every dollar. If we’re the defendant, we want guard every penny. We want to make more money than last year. We don’t want to get cancer or die in our cars and we want the same for our loved ones. We go out on weekends to try and have sex while trying not to get punched in the face. We drink so we can be ourselves and not mind it so much. We’re desperate to be understood. We want to know someone else has felt it, too. We hate being judged unfairly. We want to make the person we heard wasn’t all that into us change their minds and admit they had us wrong. We want sunny skies with a chance of killer tornadoes, just to keep music sounding good. We take hours upon hours to admit to self consciousness. We don’t know exactly how to pleasure each other. We just want love in any and every form.

See? It’s simple.

- John Mayer

Not even have slight interest.

I don't mind.

I don't care.

Didn't know got that big impact only.

;)

Soiree A L'opera

2011-09-25T22:35:00.003+08:00

23rd September

Monash Ball 2011

Kaki kaki tangan tangan ; Brothers

Bromancing

Signature pose

Engineering girls. Too little can die.

Engineering guys.

Monash Engineering

Joanna Ho ;)

Skyscraper?

Not bad tho

But really not my kind of place

296

2011-09-23T13:36:00.014+08:00

They are just numbers.
No matter how much more I adding in.

I never wanted.
Never did.

No more.
Nothing else.
Case closed.

很多时候，脸上的笑容不代表一切。

脸上笑着，心里却是别的呢？

Wait for your turn.
I don't think it will be all fine all good.
All the while.

I know I got a long long way to go.
Nowhere to be found.

很多事我们都不懂得不晓得
不想猜了

多的是都不知道的事

就算了吧
随着它吧
也没有东西可以做了

我努力过了
真的很累

整颗心悬在半空
我只能够远远看著

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

(:

你对我有多重要
我后悔没让你知道

It ain't nothing but a heartache.

It ain't nothing but a mistake.

Again.

2011-09-21T15:31:00.005+08:00

The more I wanna let it pass me
The more it came back to me

Newly made. Don't fail me so fast.

Three more things.
That still linger around.
That haven’t throw, hide, delete, change.
Truly know that will not get used to it.

Don't say I dreamed of the impossible.
Because you did that all the time too.

Really?
I know you don't.
I know it all the while.

I don't care what others talk about me or whatsoever.
But please judged others, after looking at yourself first. ;)
This.

What will happen next?

反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德拒绝也不是一种罪过

I'm missing all the little pieces of everything

Maybe that’s right.
I don’t bother to make an effort.
When there are plenty of chances.

你的背包让我走得好缓慢

People nowadays

2011-09-16T19:32:00.004+08:00

CRAZY

PEOPLE

hehehe. -.-
Actually right, this is just saying ty and nj.
Not others. But if you want to imply, it's definitely okay.

Better don't believe much of what I wrote here.
Sometimes I myself don't understand.
What had been written here either.

一点都不好玩

说了算

Indecisive

2011-09-15T01:05:00.004+08:00

What things about.
The logic the sense the meaning behind all.
Left unanswered with lots of doubts.

In the end.
We didn't know what's that about either.
Or what can say is that, we forget the true meaning.
Of the things we do that in the first place.

Where the true and false overlapping each other.
Whether it is revealed or not. It doesn't matter.

At least the things can be felt there and then.
The feelings were there.

First you find out what you have , Dad would say.
Then you figure out how to make it work for what you need,
Cause you don’t get what you want.
You get just what you have and no more.
— Lilith Saintcrow (Betrayals)

I know what I want but I don't have what I need.
How?

There are trillions of stuffs that I don’t understand still.

雨下整夜我的爱溢出就像雨水

Laplace Equations

Library. Alone. Night. Raining. Cold.

My working sheets for maths.

Full of not only mathematics things.

But also a lot of other crap stuffs.

Cartoons, lyrics, words and things.

Can really wrote others things out.

Out of nowhere.

Truly feel that, the grass on the other side of the world is greener.
Which makes me wanna get out from here as much as I want.
Everything just feel not right here.
But everything that I want is here.

Contradict.
Battle with myself, again.

At least for once.

I mattered.

So blinded

Zero-ed

2011-09-08T22:26:00.011+08:00

Explanation

It takes time. Takes energy.
It won't change the views either.
Just let them judged or whatever.
Can't be bothered much.

Tired of all the explanation.
Just take it whatever it is.

You can forever lie to the world.

But not to yourself.

Who doesn't want a time machine?

You can't just lock feelings up.

Things.

Stacking up.

Piling over each other.

Messy. Complicated. Overlapping.

Stuck in time ; stuck in you ; stuck in me

I used to fold these kind of things, a lot.

Look inside it, maybe it might surprise you.

Every folds ever lines, mean something.

In between all the folded lines and scratches.

Something else might just be inside.

Walk away if you want to

It's ok, if you need to

You can run, but you can never hide

From the shadow that's creeping up beside you

There's a magic running through your soul

But you can't have it all

But it isn’t so anymore.

That’s one of the things that I wanted to know for long.
Just, I don’t have any ways any methods to find out of it.

在我心上用力地开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差

人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎

Cause you didn't know the answer either.
So don't. You really aren't anyway.

Despite everything, yeah.

I do miss you still.

想吃冰淇淋了

Magnum!

Instinct

2011-09-04T22:35:00.004+08:00

因为不在不再

所以所以

还是一样

Will never been wrong.
Am as good as that sometimes.
Self confuse. Self destruct.

Because at the end of the day.
We always regret those things that we made.
Regret those things that we’ve never do.

It all comes, rushing back, again.

It’s just it was that important.
It’s just the way it was,
That never can be changed,
Never can be replaced.

Just that I never tell you how much that really meant to me before.

Or I did?

I’ve realized you can’t live your life saying “Well other people have it worse” Because at the end of the day you still hurt the same. What you should say is “If other people have gone through it, then I can too.
— Note To Self #24

When?

I love no one but you, I have discovered, but you are far away and I am here alone. Then this is my life and maybe, however unlikely, I’ll find my way back there. Or maybe, one day, I’ll settle for second best. And on that same day, hell will freeze over, the sun will burn out and the stars will fall from the sky.
— Lemony Snicket

I tumblr too much recently. ._.
Material & Energy Balance test tomorrow.
I can't figure how I manage to get those numbers in the past tutorials.
Urgh urgh urgh.

如果还是的话

就不同了就不一样了

现在剩下的一切

就只有如果而已

如果还是像那样多好

陪着他的时候想着另一个他

Stagnant

2011-08-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

We'll see.

Where and what it leads to.

It's just the matter of time.

The unseen road. Which lies ahead, unpredictable.

What is right, what is wrong. Who knows?

That's not even a choice.
The battle between head and heart.

The very next time.
I will let my head decides.
Cannot withstand much.

It's funny.
Reading back my older blog posts.
So childish, noob and everything.
All the nice memories.
Left there.

To strive

To seek

To find

And not to yield

因为不在不再所以才会哭
像空气般不存在的存在

只是我记得，你忘了

Shivering

2011-08-25T01:27:00.011+08:00

Eve and Wall-E

Stare contest (:

I know it’s time to leave
But you’ll be in my dreams
Tonight

I don’t want to mess this thing up
I don’t want to push too far

Lady Antebellum - Just A Kiss

门外的蔷薇

带刺伤人的很直接

爬得高
跌得重

不觉得痛
而觉得空

Rainy Days

2011-08-22T15:27:00.011+08:00

又是下雨天的季节
留着雨流过的痕迹

It wouldn't really wash away everything.
Whatever's there, still there.

I need something.
To let me keep on going.

So tired of the complications.

So tired of the understandings.

So tired of being paranoid.

So tired of being judged.

So tired of being compared.

Every time I die a little bit inside.

Inhale. Exhale. Repeat.

Sour sour ;)

Penguins cannot walk backwards.
- Tumblr, Unknown (click for view)

我想要 runaway runaway

不想再怀疑自己对不对

甩开一切无所谓

就快点去runaway

我可以runaway runaway

不想再怀疑自己对不对

是为自己不为谁

不在乎的runaway

What if?

How about?
Go back to the simple no pain life?

Without.

2011-08-18T23:15:00.006+08:00

冰的固执水才会懂

It's like a norm for me already.
Everyday, without fail.
Every time, that particular.
Yeah. I'm that typical.
I can really go bang wall.

It will be the same.
Even with or without it.

I ain't ranting.
I know that it is always fair and square.

One will never always be on the upsides always.
You will at least, sway to the downhill by any means.

There you go, always need something that make you pain.
To push you back on track when you're out of it.
Some phobia phobia thingy that make you alert.
Not to do the same old mistakes anymore.

I almost get tired with all these.

But still, haven't give up on the world yet.

I still believe all these, trust and else and more.

I should have make a new one for myself back.

Not get used to nothing hanging on my hand.
Brand new one.

It has gone for long.
My walls are all quite high up.
Bridges too.

I'll be there someday

I can go the distance

I'll find my way

If I can be strong

I know every mile

When I go the distance

I'll be right where I belong

- Michael Bolton, Go The Distance

My hundredth tweet in twitter. LOL
yitguan yitguan
100th - forever and always. (:
6 Apr 10

Me draw circle

原来你都不在乎了

你都不管了

真的要放手了

Tweety.

2011-08-16T01:52:00.008+08:00

Topshop sneaker, like FINALLY.

To my biggest stalker! kaipingtay. (:

Not as nice as what expected, I finished within an hour or less than that.
Will write a big big nice nice for you when I get all my coloured pens back.
And when I am really really free, not in the middle of the night. (:
You took all my coloured pen. ._.

Stay tuned.
Give me few more months of time. HEHEHE
I busy people.

Some what in the middle of lecture.
Where 3 busy talking, 1 busy whatsapp, 1 busy texting, 1 busy fb chat and things.

I quited twitter, much much much earlier.
I quited facebook, pretty much, not when I need to find somebody.
Imma should quit tumblr soon. The biggest addiction recently.

Oh well.

Escapism

2011-08-10T22:31:00.004+08:00

Haters gonna hate.
Am definitely happy for you.

Didn't I said before that.
I don't really care about?

I don't care what others think.
I don't care what others say.
I don't care what others judge.
I don't care whatever it is.
Whatever.

'Be yourself'
That's it.

Note that.
Ain't interested in that no more.
Not gonna bet on it with anything.

I do treasure everything that I had, have.

We'll do it all

Everything, on our own

We don't need

Anything, or anyone

All that I am

All that I ever was

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

People said things changed, people changed.
Indeed. :D

Because in the end.
Everything seems not important anymore.
Not at all.

Week 3 already.
And am still watching 'Pretty Little Liars'.
With school bag, lecture notes lay aside, ditched.

No pressure still.
I need to stop all these.

You're leaving.

Because it's easier to walk away.

Than to fight for what you really want.

- Aria, Pretty Little Liars

Done

Finish

Everything

Dreamer

2011-08-07T20:58:00.007+08:00

因为我还相信

I got a sudden crave.

Ice-cream or anything sweet.

I even think more when I travel alone.

I need to runaway.

Somewhere far.

Regardless.

2011-08-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

I say it and I really meant it.
Although I still care about.

I tried, I failed.
So I accepted.

“Don’t take anything personally.
Nothing other people do is because of you.
It is because of themselves.”
— Don Miguel Ruiz

这世界还是美好的

因为我还相信

August

2011-08-02T02:25:00.009+08:00

“If you have to ask, you’ll never know. If you know, you need only ask.”
— Helena Ravenclaw

20-year-old

It makes no difference

I wish for
Peacefully simple happy life
For everyone

Nothing else
I guess

(:

August

Please be good

Until the very end

End of everything

紧紧握住的拳头

在松开以后

才真真知道

一直以来

坚持的是什么

值得吗

松开它

也许会过得好一些

我下次也很确定的

不会当好人去迁就

我不要再为同一个人

而哭了哭够了

好多好多了

我就不信

我找不到一个

比你更好的人

真真假假

也分不清了

有时候我宁可

什么都不知道

你赢你赢

贴贴切切的输

无所谓

早已习惯了
我管不了了
也不要理了
累了
算了

谢谢你
一切

(:

It goes on

Move on
Let go

Immensely

2011-07-29T23:41:00.006+08:00

It is when everything can be well defined.
Well assumed, well expected, well explained.
Six sense never failed me. I think.
By all the things interpreting, analyzing.

You might think I don't look

But deep inside

In the corner of my mind

I'm attached to you

I'm weak

It's true

Cause I'm afraid to know the answer

Do you want me too?

Cause my heart keeps falling faster

- Ryan Cabrera, True

I really zombie-ish.

I swear I sleep damn early for this semester.

For this one whole week at least.

Panda look, really.

Like I'm made of class

Like I'm made of paper

Like a skyscraper

- Demi Lovato, Skyscraper

whxn

Truth is.
imy.i.

Missing pieces

2011-07-29T00:12:00.001+08:00

And after all that's been said and done

You're just the part of me I can't let go

Couldn't stand to be kept away

— Chicago, Hard to say I'm sorry

Solitary

2011-07-26T20:08:00.010+08:00

I am seriously tired.

Physically mentally and whatever that can describe.

Sleep depivation. -.-

Shattered

Thinking of the things.
Over and over and all over again.
Still so clearly remembered.

It's funny that it's all true and not applicable all the times

I'm listening

To the song we used to sing

In the car, do you remember, butterfly

Early Summer

It's playing on repeat

Just like when we would meet

Like when we would meet

And I'm tired

Of being all alone

And this solitary moment makes me

Want to come back home

— Secondhand Serenade, Your Call

知道的太多太多

不知道的也很多

可能我也不是很了解而已

也可能我从头到尾也不知道

不知道

不明白

不理解

不明了

没有理由了

Lovey

Penguins

♥

希冀
记忆再储起

Circling

2011-07-24T04:12:00.003+08:00

"Which came first, the phoenix, or the flame?"

"A circle has no beginning."

— Luna Lovegood

No beginning and thus no ending.

Never ending of matters, stories.

Undone, unfinished, untold.

Not essentially essential.

Somehow somewhat.

Maybe it doesn't even matter,
In the end?
Or maybe it did?

Pathetic

End of a month of do-nothing-day-everyday.
New semester commencing.
Meeting the old faces in hectic uni life again.
Another new four subjects.
All over again.

Only that.
This time I don't know.
How much will I change anymore.
Or just remain the same like usual.

Complicated

Time flies
~~24th July 2010~~

One year old (:

Uber cute and totally huggable

想你现在在哪里

想你会为谁担心

想你是否已忘记

忘记那段爱情

忘记那颗泪滴

忘记了所有不该忘的回忆

"Where do Vanished objects go?"

"Into nonbeing, which is to say, everything."

— Minerva McGonagall

当泪水堵住了胸口

就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱我不痛我不懂

我的心早已掏空

真心话言不由衷

- 林俊杰, 我还想她

This is just another no point lame post.

Just that

I can't differentiate

My priorities anymore

It still

In a mess

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑着心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

Twigs

2011-07-19T20:30:00.009+08:00

Has always like the weird weird stuffs.

For all the sleepless night during the holiday.

Which makes things even not better.

Not getting worse or good.

But just, like that.

Still.

Running through the mind.

Many of the times.

With all the questions.

Unanswered.
Unsolved.

Pichu ♥

Many cute can die

It means

You are my everything

Hazu kashikute mada mada iesou ni wa nai kedo…

Kimi ga omou yori mo kitto, kimi wo daiji ni omou kara.

wru.

2011-07-15T13:56:00.008+08:00

终于

下雨了

Your voice

Was the soundtrack of my summer

Do you know

You're unlike any other

You'll always be my thunder

The shine of light.
What will it brings?
Where will it leads?

~~Genting steamboat 2010~~

):
Dnnncnlns

This one only correct actually

Magical

2011-07-15T01:56:00.011+08:00

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
End of the series. Gonna read the book again tomorrow.
And re-watch all the movies, one by one, in order after that.

Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secret
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

♥

Played Tetris for more than an hour during midnight.
Which made my vision kinda blur now.
Somore I refused go to sleep still.

Holiday well spent?
At least it isn't like all the last times.
I went out quite a lot, meeting up old friends.
This and that.

I still miss Subang a lot though.
Of the people, places, shopping, bubble tea.
All the random random things.
And you.

Try again or walk away

Don't want anymore

Stubborn

Why so? I don't know.
Really need to get knock at my head from others.
Knock away all the things inside, till I forget.
HEHEHE. -.-

Cause I'm just as simple as that.
Problem solve with just that.
Problem is, it can't be solve.
Yet.

Soon soon.

Soon to be.

I've been told what's done is done

To let it go and carry on

Deep inside I know that's true

I'm stuck in time, stuck on you

- Lesley Roy, Unbeautiful

Because in the end of the day.
We have only ourself to rely on.
People leave. Didn't they?
One by one.

Next year all going off already also.

Purple colour Nike bottle not producing anymore.
And I can't search any of it anymore in all the stores.
Well. Life. Have to really accept. Nevermind.

我睡不着 -.-

3.36am in Ipoh.
So not me.

Holiday makes people emotional.

不要固执了

不会了

不在了

不一样了

不可能了

Memanglahtu,

dnnncnl kan.

Betul betul ini.

2011-07-12T00:30:00.002+08:00

abcdefghimissyouvwxyz

Crapz.

2011-07-10T23:00:00.010+08:00

Officially Year 2 sem 2 student.

Not that happy with my own results tho.

Not happy at all of it.

No surprised.

Kinda expected of it.

Glad is that I pass all my subjects.

Too much drama and all the things.

Next semester cannot play like this anymore.

I wanna get my ass out of here.

Seriously.

My hair now.

Me likely.

Ipoh many panas.

Many many a lot hot.

Macam microwave.

The endless ride

Ending no where to be seen

体谅地相信你只是爱累了
绝不是有别的人替代我了
连自己都想问我为什么
只抱抱你就放手像好好的
其实心瓦解班驳

寂寞不痛痛在念旧
越小的是越多的感受
时间像笨小偷把幸福打破
留下了碎片让人难过

Everytime is the same

It's always the inverse

In between

没收到

算了吧

Remain.

2011-07-09T22:41:00.009+08:00

Because I never want things to change.

Just wanna remain what things supposed to be.

To be exactly the way it was.
What it used to be.
What it was.

Was.

Stop being stupid.

Stop being stubborn.

You got one hand.
I got the other.
And _ _ _ _ .

Touchable, reachable.

No more.

So tired still.

After so many hours of sleep.

成全不是美德

拒绝也不是一种罪过

你能给我

快乐还是寂寞

属于

2011-07-08T03:07:00.007+08:00

你在哪里
在我心里

我找不到你
你快点出来

还得了？

完了

/:

Si sour

3 something in the morning.

Accidentally woke up.

Ta Shuo ; Ta

2011-07-07T14:37:00.016+08:00

Trust your heart if the seas catch fire,
Live by love though the stars walk backward.
- E.E. Cummings

It is about taking chances.

Chances.

The act of stepping outside your boundaries.

And doing something far from your own comfort zone.

Almost reckless even, that may be met with,

Absolute success or outright failure.

It also means to trust what you feel in your heart.

Regardless of what anyone says or thinks.

Live life by love in the heart.

And it will always prevail.

Because it is pointless.

For now, for always.

Yeah, I know.

It is always.

Those which & who matters.

I know.

I always know.

I do.

Falling in love.

Falling apart.

This will be.

Another never ending story.

Me want pixie dust.

Zao bu dao ni.

Kuai dian chu lai.

hi. imy.

谢谢你

反正你早已

把我删掉了

Far away.

2011-07-05T22:14:00.007+08:00

Girl.

Stop pushing yourself so hard.

Stop trying so hard for nothing.

You can't change anything no more.

You've try your very best.

Even after everything.

Nothing's change.

Stop letting someone affects your emotion.

Stop putting someone something as priorities.

Stop feeling all over and over again.

Que Sera, Sera.

Whatever will be, will be.

Get your head high up

And walk away

Triumph in the skies.

You should watch it.

Ain't priority

Ain't important

At the edge of feeling nothing

Joke.

Passkey: that date

If ever I locked it up.

Penang

2011-07-03T20:11:00.004+08:00

A must each and every year.

At least for once.

还是喜欢在海边吹风

不想想东西

其实还是在想

Papa and mama Chew.

Chew mui mui and di di.

I'm proud of my heart.

It's been played, stabbed, cheated, burned and broken,

But somehow still works.

- Unknown, Tumblr

I want to care less

But I couldn't help

I don't wanna care

Blessings

2011-07-02T08:38:00.000+08:00

收到就好

没收到也就算了

就算了吧

习惯了

开心就好

No need to avoid me anymore. That'll be the very last thing I do. Up to you to judge or what.

好的事情也许能够重复

感动时分就算纷纷模糊

不要哭至少你和我记得很清楚

爱是为彼此祝福

Triumph In The Skies

2011-07-01T00:00:00.004+08:00

Nostalgia

Nos-talgi-a (n - st l j , n-)n. l. A:

Bittersweet longing for things, persons, or situations of the past.

I have to try something new.

Do something different.

Experience more.

Be different.

Be better.

Input Output.

Incoming Outgoing.

每个人都缺乏什麽

我们才会瞬间就不快乐

单纯很难包袱很多

已经很勇敢还是难过

许多事情都有选择

只是往往事後我才懂得

情绪很烦说话很冲

人和人的沟通有时候没有用

一路嗅着追着美梦

爬上屋顶意外跌得好重

不觉得痛是觉得空

城市的幻影有千百种

Just that I didn't call this year anymore.

No matter how much I want to stick around, just, .

Because you matter much.

A month and a day gap.

Stranger, Happy Birthday.

Be good.

July.

Favourite?

All out of nothing.

2011-06-27T05:03:00.010+08:00

3 days 2 nights.

The amount of states we went: Three.

With all the most random people in the world.

Port Dickson, Malacca, Genting.

The random road trips we went.

The squeezed of 7 people in a car.

The poker games and this and that.

The fun in the water park.

The shouting and laughing and repeating in the slides.

The being dragged to the middle of wave pool which I can't even tip-toe.

The searching for hotel at night with wet clothings.

The eating and buying like nobody's business in Jonker Street.

The gun fight shooting in between 2 cars along the road.

The 'slapping' people in the night after he semi-conscious.

The taking photos in the middle of a quite narrow street.

The lol-ing at people who kena bird popping out of nowhere.

The breeze of night on top of a hill, freezing but yet refuse to zip up jacket.

The sleeping in all the car rides and journeys.

The most lame place among all of swapping people in the car outside a condo.

Which woke me up from blur-ness and dizziness out of the night.

The 'on-lah' for all the random things random trips.

I should be sleeping by now. 5am. Stupid thing that make me awake.
Must have change back my biological clock before next semester commence.

Not really true but I did eat a lot ice-creams.

Like really a lot, lot lot.

If only I can eat Magnum.

Nothing beats ~~that~~ feeling.

想放放不掉

不能向前

不能退后

Same place, exactly.

365 days ago.
Differences.

But different toys in those machines already.

The nearly-get JayChou souvenirs still there.

Ni zai na li?

Ni dou bu zai le.

9-12-25
9-13-25

Beach.

2011-06-24T00:03:00.008+08:00

I want everything to be exactly the way it was.

- Selena Gomez, Wizard of the Wevearly Place movie.

Void.

Exactly what I feel sometimes.

I am always the one to be blamed.

Damn used to it already.

Off to two beaches it this 2 weeks.

One with friends one with family.

Beach.

The place that I love the most.

Eventho I can't even swim well.

This time should really go shout to the sea.

A-Lin's songs very nice.

Especially, this.

Am watching HTTYD for the kazillion times.

Look, the point is.

Stop trying so hard.

To be something you're not.

I just want to be one of you guys.

- HTTYD, Gobber & Hiccup

Whatever.

wxnl.

Done.

2011-06-23T02:00:00.009+08:00

Semester 1, Finals - Done

Flip flop - Done

That - Progressing

Ice skating - Soon

Lagoon - Soon

Me.

Still patching.

I'm okay.

That's what it supposed to be.

It ain't nothing, but.

Never-mind.

I just feel like.

Doing nothing.

Finally, purple.

Finally, new one.

Anyway,

Very nice.

It suits well.

Really.

Hmm.

Stubborn.

2011-06-19T03:18:00.008+08:00

说了再见才发现再也见不到

我不能就这样失去你的微笑

口红待在桌脚而你我找不到

若角色对调你说好不好

Then maybe you'll know
How it is
How it feel

Stubborn

Confusing

Anything that you named it

Two hundred

找不到了

Cause it is just the fact that

I still remember everything

Never.

2011-06-17T01:58:00.005+08:00

Nearer.

But the distance gets further each day.

Each and every single one.

Day by day,

Still counting on.

想若结局一样又何苦再想

想若让人成长我为什么怕分手的伤

Vans

2011-06-16T01:00:00.002+08:00

Hang it on there.

Two more papers to go.

After tomorrow, one more.

Did so many Maths papers already.

Should be okay, right?

Don't fail me again.

Tomorrow paper.

Please same as past year papers at least.

No polar form or polar coordination.

No anything that in angles and things.

Pretty pretty please.

Too much of Mathematics.

Laughed for no reason for the whole day today.

Sugar rush, maybe.

I wanna get the navy blue vans sneakers.

Hoodie day tomorrow.

Since all three of us exam together.

My grey colour spongebob. :D

GREY KALAR HOODIE.

One day,

I will have these kind of collections.

I mau polaroid camera.

无所谓无所谓

回忆却像只贴身鬼魅

无处躲多狼狈

Atelophobia

2011-06-12T01:06:00.003+08:00

多宁愿只是争吵
还能道歉和好

I keep on humming this part of the song lately only.

Study over-flow.

Limited brain capacity.

No time for a very good long sleep.

Brain out-of-order very soon already.

Energy in not equals to energy out.

Mad tired.

Good thing of final exams.

Hectic life, limited time.

To do any other things.

Other than study.

It still most important.

So stress.

For the very first time feel the stress.

Maths next Thursday.

Thermodynamics next next Wednesday.

Then off for sem break for a month.

And I really need to find work this time.

Halfway through June already.

Hmmm.

Excessive intake of Hello Panda too.

Small small small eyes due to lack of sleep.

When will it become normal size back. ):

Messy messy messy.

That means.

Fear of imperfection.

An extreme fear of failing to achieve perfection.

Breathe again

2011-06-11T01:54:00.002+08:00

是一再的做
一再的错不由我
我一步一步一步一步慢慢走向流沙

爱情好象流沙

我不挣扎

随它去吧我不害怕

爱情好象流沙

心里的牵挂

不原放下

让我这样吧

原来我怕

不再了

Serenity

2011-06-10T03:33:00.002+08:00

Control control.

Girl, don't be so silly again.

I can't help thinking.

I just need to get used to it.

It's not my loss.

There's not even a choice there.

I want and I don't want.

Is always not my side.

Not my choice.

Not the way I want it to be.

习惯就好

Things we lose have a way

Of coming back to us in the end

If not always in the way we expect

Just finished half of finals for Year 2 Sem 1.

Back-to-back tests is a no no no good. Damn tiring.

The best thing is that there will be no more Chemistry.

No more of all those things in the rest of my life.

All the memorizing, hard work, sleepless night.

Didn't really paid off, worth it. -_-

You set it again

My heart's in motion

Every word feels

Like a shooting star

I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows

Burning in the dark

I only said it 'cause I mean it

Oh I only mean it

'Cause it's true

So don't you tear

What I've been dreaming

'Cause it keeps me up

And holds me close

Whenever I'm without you

I could be all that you need. If you let me try

- Katherine McPhee, Terrified

This could be good

It's already better than that

And nothing's worse

Went through all the worse

So far still good?

Break and Down

2011-06-05T04:59:00.006+08:00

Because only these won't fade.

And now I regretted for not taking that much.

I've still have every single pieces inside both places.

Hmm. Sot already really.

I, I will remember you

And all of the things

That we’ve gone through

There is so much I can say

But words get in the way

- Ryan Cabrera, I will remember you

以前说的

不是这种以后

Because its just a sudden breakdown.

Sudden change in mood, in everything.

Out of a sudden, suddenly.

So many flashbacks.

Just like that.

Can't help.

Exams, dramas, finals.

So stress of so many things.

So tired of everything.

So done with it.

I need more time and more brains now for real.

Tuesday bio nano, Thursday chemistry.

How ah how. Chemistry can really make me go bang wall.

It doesn't make any sense for me at all.

Tomorrow really full turbo already.

No no no more slacking please.

The only thing happy for the past few weeks.

One of the best friends back from Aussie out of the blue.

A big big big surprise really.

And with the grey grey hoodie that I longed for recently.

This will be the very last thing I hide things from you and for you.

Why have to like make everyone in the world please you.

Not anymore. -.-

Please concentrate after I woke up later please.

No more these and that and all those shits.

5am. Hmm.

I will remember you.

想念只让自己苦了自己
爱上你是我情非得已

Plain and simple.

2011-06-02T10:52:00.002+08:00

你是我唯一想要的了解

-less

2011-05-30T23:11:00.014+08:00

(verb)-less

Just fill in the blanks.

With anything you want.

This time,

I am so sure about what I want.

What I really want, for real.

Just.

Can't have it.

As usual.

As always.

原来真的没有理由的

也因此不需要理由了

因为从头到尾

我也找不到答案

在浪费时间

不值得 -.-

So annoying.

Annoyingly annoying irritating.

If that ever happen.

Claire

2011-05-30T02:20:00.012+08:00

一切就像夏天的烟火绽放以后

就会瞬间回到平静

到现在

我还是选择

继续

Because it is that simple.

To made up my day.

Really do put a smile on my face.

Eventually I laugh for quite some time.

For no reason.

Studying bio-nano in the middle of nowhere.

Then suddenly looked up and saw something.

Straight in front of me, straight spotted.

Object 180 degrees parallel to my vision.

That really made my eyes went O_O!

So many funny things after that.

Doppelgänger.

Koreanz.

Consequences, I had a bad night.

I didn't sleep well, hard to fall asleep.

With all those things floating in mind.

I want to eat Zanmai la.

They all tempt me, bring me there.

But right after I finish my meal.

Can see the sushi those thingy.

But there's no more space in my stomach.

Urgh.

HTTYD, the very first one.

A very nice cartoon tho.

Very meaningful indeed.

Meaning behind.

'Thank you for nothing, you useless reptile.'

- Hiccup, HTTYD

Even there's harmony in between human and dragon

Hiccup and the toothless, the Night Fury.

Haha. I simply like this picture and I don't know why.

Cause it is exactly a year ago, again.

I should've stop being so particular in time and things.

I should be studying. -_-

More of sleeping actually.

I thought you'd always be mine.

Mine.

Give way ; Limitations

2011-05-27T17:07:00.000+08:00

不是每一次的忍让每一次的不作声

都是换来一次又一次的变本加厉的

也会有一个极限的

退一步海阔天空

一次又一次的退让

退了多少步我已不懂了

以为都把东西往肚子里吞

就可以把大事化小

变成没有一回事

这一次，一样的

我什么都没做，静静的在一旁

却相同的又是我中招我遭殃

这次我真的搞不懂我又错在那里

我无话可说了

我不理了

随你

到头来

什么也不是

靠的还是自己罢了

Because I get turned down,

Get disappointed too many times recently already.

Especially by those people which;

I love the most,

I trust the most,

I care the most,

I open up the most.

;

2011-05-26T15:41:00.003+08:00

原來你早就想好

你要留在谁的身旁

More than
Less than
Exclamation mark.

Nothing more nothing less

2011-05-24T09:15:00.008+08:00

One ugly truth.

No matter how hard you hug your soft toy,

It just wouldn't hug you back and give any response.

Actually I've had forget how to feel already.
And too forget how to believe and anything else.
So void, so nothing, so stupid, so 'I-don't-know'.

Just so you know.

无所谓无所谓
回忆却像只贴身鬼魅
无处躲多狼狈

你把爱作废
借口多刺耳迂回

So done with wishing you were still here

Raisins ; Penguins

2011-05-23T01:50:00.009+08:00

23rd May.

Just, not anymore.

Not last year.

I'm not looking back;

Nor moving forward.

What I just realized is that.

I'm still at the same spot.

Same old spot all these while.

When all the things strikes again.

Same old stupid terrible things happen all over again.

Tearing for nothing, listening to the same old song.

Not doing what am I suppose to do.

I didn't start off this to play.

And I also didn't expect it to end this way.

As well didn't expect it will meant this much.

I didn't ask for all these.

I didn't ask for anything or rant.

Patience, determination and love.

I've had three of it. But still?

Not true. Reality, hits again.

Smack right in front of the face.

I thought I will definitely be okay after so long.

I should've doubt my own ability of handling things.

Yes, you are right, it takes time, more than I imagine.

When the song comes at the right time.

That means, it's faith.

Cause I was repeating that song during it.

Am still repeating, for hours already.

把手借我一天一分钟

♥ :):

It's bipolar.

尽管我有多想再画三角形

你再也不会陪我画圈圈了

A triangle, without one line.

Then add another two half circles.

你却已不在

Thanks, for everything.

All these while, all these things.

For the very first time someone meant that much.

That let me fall that deep into the well.

But now have to crawl back up by myself.

To stand back on the ground, on my own.

Because I start not to feel anything already.

And start not to believe things as well.

And I really hope that I don't care about it also.

But is just I cannot stop myself and I hate this part of me.

Stupidity, of mine.

Shattered, this time really.

想你想你也能成为嗜好

(M = su)(M = u)

周怡君，够了

If we ever cross again.

Reasoning

2011-05-22T16:12:00.002+08:00

If I would wished for a change in the past,
The only reason will be so that,
The chance that should be there now,

Would be.

Too much.

2011-05-22T02:12:00.006+08:00

Cause you and I

Could lose it all if you've got no more room

Nowhere inside for me in your life

You know I'd fight for you

But how could I fight someone who isn't even there

I've had the rest of you now

I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair

Don't run away.

And it's hard to love again,

When the only way it's been,

When the only love you know,

Just walked away.

Well, I'm not sure what this is gonna be,

But with my eyes closed all I see

Is the skyline, through the window,

The moon above you and the streets below.

Too much of the time doing nothing, all this crap.

Too little of the time studying in library.

Too much of the time of thinking nothing.

Too little of the time for the real study.

Too much and too little of everything.

My green hoodie!

Finals, countdown.

2.5 weeks left.

So much to catch up still.
There are so much that I don't understand.

Where's our equivalent trade,

That we made for each other?

Zz

2011-05-19T09:48:00.000+08:00

Annoying, really.

To whoever and whatever is that,

Please stop what you doing, teasing, ejek-ing.

Won't and never gonna have any response.

I say it and I really mean it.

Damn irritating, alot, much.

Jangan mengada-ada dan menimbulkan masalah untuk saya.

Kthxbai. (:

Oh Dot

2011-05-15T18:45:00.019+08:00

Waste of time.

Waste of energy.

Waste of everything.

But that's not a waste.

Worthwhile still.

So far fetch.

Totally out of my league.

Already.

End of story.

Anyway, you live life.

Nice life, in a perfect world.

Happy happy kay.

冰的固执水才会懂

也许以后再也没人比你更爱我

也许以后我也不可能再那样活

每当想起你的时候快乐都比较多

也许快乐是时间的幽默

多少天多少夜爱一个人很难爱自己更难

清晨醒来所有美梦都不见

很爱过很痛过我们为了彼此而活过
你爱我拥抱着我却让我看不见星空
我们都没有错没有谁比较寂寞
我的世界早已经不是以前

- 丁当, 很爱过

Stupidity.

All these while.

I don't need, but I want you.

Oh well.

2011-05-11T01:01:00.013+08:00

幸福是一想到你就心安

地要老天要荒的谁还想管

幸福是一起醒来说早安

海枯石烂这种大事与我无关

幸福是完成你每一个期盼

登月或摘星留给谁去狂欢

幸福是陪着你回味遗憾

伟大的圆满与我们真的无关

This is just another phase.

People change, opinion changes.

Its all not the same anymore.

It doesn't matter, perhaps?

All those that I had.

Was so past years, really.

Wish to turn back in time but couldn't.

To enjoy once more and change those which were wrong.

When I looked back, I'm pretty sure I was smiling, laughing.

Me and Anna were laughing all the way when viewing those photos.

What's ironic are that ;

Those who were so closed, now is so far apart.

What used to be, but for now isn't anymore.

Best friends were those times, strangers were now.

It meant a lot, but now maybe not anymore?

Dislike here, hatred there, anger those. Hmm?

Why have to go and make things so complicated.

Why?

I don't know and I can guess no more.

I don't understand people I realized. You.

I hardly can understand myself too sometimes, all the time.

Someone once assured me that.

平你的凡头

你很特别的

It still meant a lot to me, don't you ever doubt it.

And will always be I think.

I swear I got big eyes last time.

But after all these things happening around,

Literally my eyes become two straight lines.

Really look like this at times I laugh very hard.

Puan Mahani said,

The more you laugh, the more you cry.

Maybe that's why, my eyes turning smaller.

I used to laugh a lot, but now only I realized I good in sobbing too.

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

-Lifehouse, Blind.

要怪就怪在，我都把东西都看得太简单了

我想给的你不再需要

想放放不掉

Keep coming back to this site.

When you start to think about me.

New iTouch cover, so nice.

Amazing Race.

2011-05-08T00:56:00.007+08:00

Monash Amazing Race. ;)

At the 23rd placing out of 50 groups.

Not bad ma, above average, above my expectations.

Got eliminated in route 13. Nevermind, quite fun tho.

Run and walk all the way around sunway under hot sun.

Finding clues here and there and being sabotaged. Hmm.

Sepang hot sun and wind and smooth sand.

Home-cook spaghetti with mushroom soup.

All in a day. I think all these only consider amazing race.

Now,

Mad tired.

Very true tho, really.

Super duper triple quarter.

喜欢你, 却没能

放低你, 还是你

我也始终

总不适合你

不可一起

我与你

已不在一起

Daisuki.

2011-05-07T01:17:00.003+08:00

以前的我，很期待星期五的到来。

Paranoia

2011-05-06T02:37:00.009+08:00

Can, will, shall.

Could, would, should.

Meanings changing alot didn't them.

Even they come out from the same word.

Every night and every morning still.

Never missed a day.

付出过是不是就换的回希望

呼吸太乱世界太宽

缘分毕竟太短

路太弯梦在转错过的人已不在

以为我能习惯一个人的安全感

路太弯爱在转明知忘记会很难

我一路上跌跌撞撞

却找不回拥抱的形状

我一路上跌跌撞撞

却找不回拥抱的形状

I'm chew, that's why I OM NOM NOM.

One more month till finals.

So many things to do, reports, assignments.

I got not much time to study.

Now need to face to consequences of playing too much.

Slack too much and never listen in lectures.

Need to hardcore study already.

To pay back what I missed.

Had damn alot of bubble teas and ice-creams recently.

Eating ice-cream during late night and early morning.

Really got a little bit crazy recently, of everything.

Can be damn hyper-ly happy this minute.

But the other round the next moment.

You know I'd fight for you

But how could I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you

I don't care if that's not fair

Don't make me promises baby

You never did know how to keep them well

There are time it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it
Then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it

- Westlife, All or Nothing.

I was being reminded that it's May now.

March April May June July August

September October November

♥

半夜电话响, 还以为是你.

hmmm.

19th March 2010. (:

难以忘记初次见你

一双迷人的眼睛

May was wonderful.

It is when somebody stop trying.

Pulpy

2011-05-03T04:19:00.003+08:00

同样的地方

同样的心情

从里面冷到外面

从里外面到冷面

心寒

我当时哼着'七里香'

Hmm. Hi?

4.30 in the am.

Another random one.

Fading

2011-05-01T00:00:00.004+08:00

放下会走得更远的?

我过不了自己那一关.

说过的, 答应过的

我想我都做得到.

Everything fades, eventually.

Litmus paper dipped in dilute water.

Even the colour of it come out.

I thought our days would last forever,

But it wasnt our destiny,

Cause in my mind we had so much time,

But i was so wrong,

No i can believe me i can still find the strength

In the moments we made

I'm lookin back on yesterday

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,

They take the music that wel never play,

All the broken dreams take everythin,

Just take it away,

But they can never have yesterday,

They can take the future that wel never know,

They can take the places that we said we will go,

All the broken dreams,

Take everything,

Just take it away,

But they can never have yesterday.

- Leona Lewis, Yesterday

Because I could never hate you.

This doesn't change the fact that,

Three words, eight letter.

Guess it yourself.

xia yu tian

2011-04-29T10:46:00.005+08:00

Woke up in a heavy rainy day.

Make the mood also become one of the kind.

Eventhough it was already like these these few days.

Bah, kill me please.

And I'm so dead for Entropy in the Thermodynamics.

So freaking complicated with the integration and differentiation thing.

I want to go all the Disneyland in the world.

Peter Pan and Tinkerbell.

I know I shouldn't anymore.

Please go give up and let go.

Slap myself hard on the face.

Did you forget all the plans,

That you made with me?

Cause I didn't at all.

Step up; Step down.

2011-04-27T14:14:00.016+08:00

每一次

都告诉自己

算了吧

没关系

到头来

我自己也不知道

我自己在坚持着什么

到头来

也不只是

一无所有

SOUNDTRACK OF MY SUMMER?

So many assignments out of sudden.

A little bit of here and there.

So needa study for real.

A phone call from far away land.

Do help even though just crapping.

But still, remains the same.

Rather wrap myself under the blanket.

And off any connection devices.

Just that this time didn't blast music.

Bah.

It will be never be forgotten.

It will just deform into another aspects.

Others asked me why.

And I got no answers for that question either.

I'm okay.

Isn't that the answer that I'm suppose to give?

I need more do nothing day.

Yeah, I do trust people a lot.

Because I do everything for a reason.

Many reasons behind.

Just like a tattoo.

I will always have you.

Deep down inside.

心里的眼泪

模糊了视线

你已快看不见

Pain. So?

No one cares about.

I drew a line; I drew a line for you

Oh what a thing to do

And it was all yellow

And your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones

Turn into something beautiful

D'you know?

For you I bleed myself dry

- Coldplay, Yellow

怎么隐藏　我的悲伤

失去你的地方

你的发香　散的匆忙

我已经跟不上

闭上眼睛　还能看见

你离去的痕迹

在月光下　一直找寻

那想念的身影

I should track no more.

Penguin Raccoon Panda

2011-04-24T23:40:00.009+08:00

Ipoh, with good food, good people and good bed.

Think can sleep on my bed and gain weight all day long.

Must start work tomorrow. Heh.

Must start all the reports and study for all subjects.

Really cannot catch up if I don't start.

Feel damn out of place already really.

I don't wanna fail year 2.

Meh. So much to do.

Still feel like hibernating, for the whole week.

It doesn't mean holiday, when with works on.

I want travel.

Far far far away.

At least a place with nothing.

Nothing at all.

I want to be colourful back.

With smiley smiley here and there.

我以为我够坚强却输得那呢绝望

少给我一点希望希望就不是奢望

也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生

Past & Present.

Before & After.

Now & Always.

I meant it.

What I did.

What I said.

Because I believed; I trusted.

If it still hurts.

That means you still care.

If it still poured.

That means ?

Lagu ini banyak maksud still.

雨下整夜我的爱溢出就像雨水，
窗台蝴蝶像诗里纷飞的美丽章节，
我接着写把永远爱你写进诗的结尾，
你是我唯一想要的了解

Pikachu.

Pikachew.

Peek-at-chu.

把思念收在心里的自相矛盾

我不说你会察觉得到吗

Because everything reminds me of you

Fragments of memories.

2011-04-23T01:30:00.008+08:00

Somehow, I am missing the days.

That's not about moving on.

That's about getting used to.

I should be sleeping by now.

So tired after all of everything that happened.

It was so fun back since 7 or 8 weeks ago.

So many things happened, so much dramas.

So many outings, so many of the fresh memories, new places.

So many of the random things, yumcha.

So many of the rushing reports, paraphrasing old reports.

So many of the late night sleeping hours this semester.

So many of the this and that, that couldn't list all here at all.

Just that our sleeping time really not all right anymore.

It's just another 2am for me. In which have to wake by 7am tomorrow.

I must really hibernate for few days during this one week holiday first.

But there's a list must-do to do for the whole week. Urgh.

Back to Ipoh. :D

In an alternative way which is free.

Will things be much more better soon?

Everything will fades, eventually.

Better off without, hopefully.

Will be eventually I guess.

笑也笑过；哭也哭过

So much of the everything.

You didn't know.

There are those tiny little random things.

That I like the most, of everything.

Up to you to believe or not.

How many times can I break till I shatter?

Over the line can't define what I'm after

I always turn the car around

All that I feel is the realness I'm faking

Taking my time but it's time that I'm wasting

Always turn the car around

- O.A.R., Shattered

在爱的幸福国度

你就是我的唯一

Spinning Choices

2011-04-21T01:18:00.006+08:00

我不想
在我每一次
哭的时候
都是因为
同样的人
同样的事情

我不想
但我却做不到
我很失败

太清醒了

You don't know how sober I am right now.

我好想你
我不想哭了

Collision.

2011-04-18T03:44:00.009+08:00

Sometimes I wish I could just be a little girl again.

So when life gets tough you can just play pretend.

And every time you were sad or just had a bad day.

You could just run to mommy and it would all be okay.

I wanna go back to no hurt and no pain.

But, what if I know how to pretend since young?

Since forever?

If only it can be that easy.

You'll never know how much it poured, it scattered.

You'll never know how important it used to be and still.

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide
- Howie Day, Collide

It's 4am. 9-13-25

It ain't nothing

But a heartache

遇见你

是最美丽的意外

Another round

2011-04-16T18:43:00.002+08:00

Meh. /:

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

- Daniel Bedingfield, If You’re Not The One

Schulze-Hardy Rule

2011-04-11T08:46:00.016+08:00

雨后还是会有天晴的

Just encounter one of this lately.

Sun rises right after the rain.

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有

倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有

真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

Yet, still wearing this smile everyday. Worry no. :D

Imma buy more hoodies soon.

Starbucks for three days continuously.

Been trying hard to understand Bio-Nano Engineering.

Up to Genting randomly twice in a week during midnight.

Cold and misty with just flip flops and short pants.

Look out point, Ampang for supper.

Same drink, different people.

Just that few years later.

We won't be doing these kind of crazy things no more.

Might as well enjoy much now. ;)

Bio-nano and maths on coming Tuesday.

I'm so dead now. So broke too.

Two weeks more till holiday.

I miss home already, really.

Must be on the right track.

Must have the better tomorrow.

Lifehouse - You and Me

On repeat for the whole night while studying. ;)

幸好还有你们

J is for Ninja!

Many many less than three.

其实你比我更幼稚

Ps: Dark Mocha still the best after all <3

How am I gonna to revenge.

When I have nothing more to lose?

说过的话

讲过的事

做过的东西

你听过几句

明白了几多

还会记得吗

Just go with it.

2011-04-07T02:29:00.011+08:00

If I am about to note down all the places I wanna go.

It will be a very long, freaking long list.

Those are must.

Just go with it.

Come along, go along.

Seriously, was not in a luck for everything since December.

iTouch problem, timetable, online tests, tests, bracelet, etc.

Have a change please, don't want stay like this anymore.

Feels good being honest, doesn't it?

There is no such thing as she/he deserves someone better.
This is easily the laziest and lousiest excuse any guy/girl can come up with.
- dkjgxy.

Katherine: She’s beautiful. I’m not 23. I’m not that.
Danny: She’s good. She’s very nice. There’s only one problem. She is not you. She’s not you.”
— Just Go with It (2011)

我想依赖而你却都不在

She's not you.

Still feeling sour inside out.

Had 3 nudges cause of this line.

Setting Free

2011-04-04T09:16:00.003+08:00

It is just a matter of time.

Or it doesn't even matter.

其实也只不过是如此

其实也再没有其实

平平凡凡而已

什么都不是

Hello April.

2011-04-01T02:54:00.018+08:00

April ; March

Last day of March - 断了就是断了
Meant to be the end of everything?

What is meant to be, will be.
Even the bracelet of mine broke apart for real this time.
No matter how many times tried to fix it, it still broken.
So, no point holding on, mending it back so many times.
It won't be the same after it is patch back anyway anyhow.
Or being replaced by anything which you can think of.
Not the same anymore. Please don't be replaced, let it be.
Which apply to whatever thing, I guess.

Feelings are feelings.
Which cannot be fight against.
Which one can fear of to handle it.
Which one can try so hard pretending.
Yet there's always this one weak point.
That make you fall all over again.

Just myself to blame.
For thinking that everything was tad simple.
Bust still simplicity better than complications.

Maybe it is real that.
Things get more complicated as we grow. Hmm.

过了就好，会好好的

最难熬的都过了

习惯就好

BR with the rest of five. Half gallon. RM64. ;)
Chocolate Mousse Royale, Cookies `n Cream,
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough, Very Bery Strawberry.

Excessive sugar consumption lately, really.
All the chocolates, waffles, hotcakes, muffins.
Biscuits, ribena, honey, cakes, desserts, ice-cream.
All time favourite. Trying hard make myself not that bitter.

Will be better eventually.
Won't be that sour for that long.
Soon soon, praying.

More to come; more to go.
More to explore; more to try.

Promises are not meant to be broken.
The past promises are what hurt the most now.

You will know where you stand.

Once after from where you fallen.

Where it begins, where it ends.
Back to this song eventually.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away

And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say

Hey, you know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in
Live right now
Yeah, just be yourself
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be alright

April, please be good.

Why? ):

It should't come out to be like this.

I never knew it will be that hard.

To be like this.

All time favourite.

This that what where who when how.

Never knew I really needed that much.

Immensely.

Why?

2011-03-29T02:10:00.007+08:00

借来的都该还掉

但是都不是借的

而是当时给予的

为什么却到最后

还是要没收回去

Workload mounting, adding on.
Time insufficient; money insufficient.
Was really busy for the past weeks.
Really and didn't even know why.
Time well spent tho at least not alone.
A little of all the this and that.

Changes.
Really changed a lot lot.
Right from the all the photos taken.
Clearly can be seen, obviously.
Still curious why is this so.

Change for better,
Or change for worst?

Really real.
Maybe, just maybe.
Being replaced by already.
Think I can't really guess anymore.
Really jealous those around the side.

猜不透了
很累了
不要想了
要睡了

不舍得舍不得都分手了
舍不得不舍得散了
爱是你的我是我的完了
原来我只是突然累了
- 林俊杰, 突然累了

想又怎样

从来都不想要变

为什么

后悔了

Entangle.

2011-03-23T02:34:00.009+08:00

MEEEH ?!

不是每一句的对不起

都能换来一句没关系

I want to runaway.

Feel like going back home straight after class.
Really got that sudden urge, homesick.

Or would rather travelling?
Or at least not at these places.
Just duwan stay here for now.

My bracelet died today.
Broke into 2 pieces. ):
Going to try fixing it.
Or hunt for another one bah.
Seriously like it very much.

“I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a living is not the same thing as making a life. I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

— Maya Angelou

That was so last year.

Zaaaaaaap!

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you.
What am I supposed to say when I all choked up and you're okay.
I'm falling into pieces.
- The Script, Breakeven

不屑

原来我是眼睛浅的

Twilight Vanilla

2011-03-19T03:28:00.007+08:00

I am absolutely seriously doing nothing at these hour.
Should have went to bed dreaming about somewhere now.
Instead, really stoning here after the 10 pages long report.

Exactly, a year ago.

That I was being pull out from the computer lab.

That I was not really being myself anymore.

That I was texting 24/7 everyday and night.

A part of it dies a little.
Everytime it is shown in front.
Think there won't be even a single piece in it.

没有理由了

And I remember
All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
And the truth, is that I really miss you
- Arvil Lavigne, Wish You Were Here

不会那么笨的
会想通的

That's not what I yearn for since beginning.
Because I miss the good-fun-silly o'times.

That was really the best feeling ever.

都是都是, 都是骗人的!

很多很多东西

我都还记得

Hundredth

2011-03-12T03:16:00.006+08:00

100th - Still want.

Patching back everything that I could.

Searching back all the little pieces everywhere.

Trying as hard not to remember.
Trying as hard not to forget.
Conclusion? Don't know.

Contradictorily.

Just that recently having so many troubles already.
Then now came another one, thanks ah thanks.
Cause of the communication errors.
Life has been going wrong since don't know when.

原来事情不是想像中的简单
一加一，并不一定等于二
原来是二进制，等于一零
还有很多很多的外来因素

温暖就那么多
全给了

得到的什么
也不重要了
至少努力过

别再执着了

多想多想
讲的; 想的; 做的
是一致的

“Maybe you’re reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road”
— Katy Perry, Firework

But during the next day.
I don't want anymore.

以前说的不是这种以后